Happy Friday Friends!
I hope and trust that this post finds you all having a great day and an awesome week coming to a close for you! The week can seem really long after having had a long weekend the previous week can't it?!
I have had a struggle for quite a long time. You see, I have absolutely no problem praying for others - interceding on their behalf, asking God to bless them, coming alongside them in their prayer requests & petitions, etc. I do this quite regularly (my spirit convicts me to do so), I believe that God loves them, I believe that their lives have great meaning & purpose, that He is working on their behalf and that He will lead, guide and protect them. I truly believe these things to the deepest recesses of my heart.
My struggle has been praying for myself. While I have not problem praying for my wife, sons, family, friends and even strangers, when it comes to praying for me I struggle. If you were to tell me your goal/dream I would not pause for a moment in asking God to bless you richly, to bring people into your life to help you accomplish your goal/dream and I would have a very high expectation that you will in fact accomplish your goal/dream. When it comes to praying for my goals, my dreams, my hopes, etc. I have often found myself pausing, hesitating, not sure what to say. I have spoken with God about this and I have also shared it with several Godly men in my life.
Earlier this week, during my prayer time, God and I were again having this conversation...again. Then came this great moment of clarity..."what are your putting your faith, your hope in Kevin?" I have been told several times in my life that I can be too black & white on issues - it was made explicitly clear to me that this is a completely black & white issue. Are you putting your faith in God, in life, in hope, in biblical truth or are you putting your faith in the world, in death, in despair, in lies? Wow! This rocked my world. While I don't know that all my goals & dreams will come true I certainly have determined in my life that I will choose God, life, hope and I will strive to live each and every day by Godly, biblical truth, allowing my spirit to lead me at all times. Yes, this felt good in my heart, this made sense. I have a long way to go to grow to full maturity in this new found wisdom, I know that. I also know where my faith is anchored and I am trusting Him to work this out in me fully until the day He brings me home.
As I was thinking about this Happy Friday this week, as God spoke to my heart, I realized that this struggle that I have had is why I will often get tears in my eyes, my heart will get very heavy, when the song "The Voice of Truth" by Casting Crowns comes on the radio. This has happened to me for a long time, the song touches my heart deeply and my wife & sons know that this is a song that is to be played at my life celebration. Well, as I am sitting here typing this Happy Friday for you, while I am in the 3rd paragraph, shortly after typing "When it comes to praying for my goals," guess what comes on the radio sitting next to me? "The Voice of Truth." A quick smile crossed my face and then tears...a lot of tears. Face wrinkling, shoulder shaking tears. Yes, I do believe in God, I do believe He loves me, I do believe that my life has value & purpose and I do believe that He cares about my goals, dreams & hopes! This Friends I will fight for and choose every day.
Please let me know if there is ever anything I can do for you or your family. I will always be willing to help you any way I can.
Have a great day, have a wonderful weekend and please cherish your precious families.
Kev
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