Happy Friday Friends!
I hope & trust this post finds you having a great day as this beautiful new opportunity, uh day, dawns!
For those of you who regularly read "Happy Friday," the answer to the question you are asking yourself right now is "o.k." There is a physical void in my life that will never again be filled...I get that. I have also chosen every day to pursue the Lord and allow Him to give me peace, to fill the whole in my heart, to be my strength. Yesterday was the first day I felt "normal" again. Wednesday was the first day that I woke up that I didn't have this panicked feeling of, "Mom is gone." Tuesday I instinctively went to grab my cell phone as I began to drive across the causeway to call Mom and then suddenly realized I can't do that anymore. In each of these moments, and many more throughout the day, I have gone to God and asked Him to lead me, to give me peace...He hasn't failed to deliver yet. I must tell you this also; I can hear my Mom's voice in my head saying, "Why are you sad?" As I told you last week, I KNOW she would not want me to be sad but rather happy for her. I again strive to honor Mom.
There are a couple of quick things I want to share with you this morning.
Last Wednesday, as we were in the thick of Mom's journey home my cell phone rang. There was a joyful voice on the other end. It was a brother that I love with all of my heart...we have been doing life together for the last 5 years or so. I hadn't spoken to him in probably a year. My heart felt good just hearing his voice, laughing at each other's stupid jokes, etc. Towards the end I said, "It is funny you should call today." He interrupted me and said, "I have to be honest man, Kathy called me..." In that moment I felt a warmth, a peace, I saw a picture of love that I quite honestly cannot explain to you. You see, I have known for a long, long time how very blessed I am that God gave me the most beautiful earthly gift He could give me, my Beautiful Bride. After 26 years of marriage it can sometimes be hard to "one up" something or to physically demonstrate your love, understanding, care & compassion for another. The first time I experienced this feeling was when Kath gave me my first son, Payton. I walked around in awe of both of them for two months...nearly 19 years later I am still in awe of both. In any event, this experience was just like it. This act of reaching out to someone she knows means the world to me showed love, understanding, compassion, selflessness, initiative...it was truly overwhelming to me. And she repeated it again, and again, and again over the next several days.
I also have to share with you a conversation we had last Sunday. The woman who reached out to so many to ask them to rally around her husband sat me down to have a talk. She said, "I don't know what you are feeling, I have not lost my Mom. I can only imagine how hard it must be. Please know I will do anything I can to help you." Wow! The demonstration of unconditional love, humility, meekness, servant hood...Wow! She didn't have all of the answers; in fact she acknowledged that she didn't have any of the answers. She recognized the pain and simply offered to help any way she could. A great lesson to her man, a great lesson for us all. We don't have to have all of the answers; we simply have to love, be humble in spirit and willing to serve.
The other thing I want to touch on briefly is the friends that have reached out. The love and support has truly been overwhelming...again, I am truly blessed beyond measure. The thing that is on my heart this morning however is not the words that any of them spoke, it is the fact that they reached out. That is all. Some I didn't even get to talk to, they simply left a message or sent a text. It matters Friends. We don't have to impart some great words of wisdom, sometimes we can't fix what is broken...all of us have the ability to just be there. If your heart tells you to call someone or send them a text, please do it. You don't have to be a great philosopher, you don't have to be a great comedian, you don't have to be anything. You simply have to care. God will take care of the rest. How about that for a great Friday challenge? The person that is on your heart right now...give 'em a call, shoot them an email, send them a text. If you do it, I assure you both of your lives will be blessed.
Please feel free to contact me at any time if there is ever anything I can do for you. I will always help you any way I can.
Have a great day, a wonderful weekend and please cherish your precious families.
Kev
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